today's band prac was LONG and horrible. at first it was alright la. until we had to play like so much more SLOWER. it sucked man! oh sheryan came today. i regret asking her to come back [no offence] but i can really feel the intensity of band practices now. wow. i realised i really suck. that's like totally depressing. i really got to work on SLOWING down the pace it's killing me man. band practices have becomed really long and tiring. i really miss the times. [in sec1and2]
back then, i used to say, 'i love band!'. now, if i say that i know i'm only be sarcastic, crap. this is bad. then i ask myself, why has everything changed so drastically? i guess it's really because of the pressure i put on myself, telling myself to do better, play better, act better, look better. this really gets on my nerves sometimes. i really wonder why. is it because there are so many happenings around me? family, school, band? man! i should really learn how to pioritise my things. i really really ought to work harder. it's so close to syf. i guess everyone's feeling the pressure. i can feel it, all this hardwork deserves a gold, in actual fact, a gold with honors. but thinking back, all the bands are also working hard. so do we all deserve a gold? i guess not. it's the final action that's really counts. the 20 mins of sitting down and playing for the panel of judges. all these months of tough work for the 20mins. wow. i guess i better put in more efford before i really start to regret after the syf. i still remember last year. everyone was like !!! la. it's like i could even sense the IMPORTANCE of that 20 mins. even a minor change would affect everything. and everyone started crying when they received the results, a gold. we should really hard and really cherish the moment instead of regreting it when the times comes. :D

25 more days to first day of syf
how freaky is that!